not sure how this is going to go but lets see.. I thought I'd post an update on the feeling and emotions i have experienced... I'll be concise though!
- I feel angry. just angry.
- powerless.. useless even.
- Overwhelmed. There are so many decisions yet to be made, and I can't begin to imagine how to make them.
- Tired. I concentrate hard when i speak to the docs so i comprehend everything.
- Lost. There's so many conflicting views.. stories of what 'should' be done or could be done.
- Upset and sad... yep - it strikes at any time.. all the time.
- Dishonest. I find myself being dishonest momre and more just to escape realities. Don't ask me 'how are you?' and expect an honest answer..!
- I just need to be with charlotte. if i'm not with charlotte, I want to be alone.
- I go to work 5 days a week - and cant see any value in it. I feel like i have nothing to offer the real world...the world that matters..
- Proud of my princess. She looks so gorgeous.. she's so brave. she looks at herself in the mirror and i see her analyse herself... i hate it. I want to tell her it's all ok..
- I feel angry again.
There.. that's a comprehensive list.
